I decided to try my best to stay open, rather than let fear win and close down.

‘Cuz the truth is that we are here to learn and The Uni-verse teaches us best through contrast (aka pain). I still tip toe into new situations; it is scary for me to open up to one person.

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But I made a promise to myself to never let the pain of the past dictate the choices of my present.

That is to say, I asked my heart to become stronger instead of risk becoming less scary.

There was a deep desire to get back into relationship or partnership with these people. I would remember why we decided to come together, but forgot why we broke apart.

Even though I KNEW it wasn’t healthy or for my best interest. So I asked The Uni-verse why the Love from my past had turned into poison of my present. I was remembering all the good moments, but forgetting the bad.

It would mean expressing the words, sentiments and thoughts that Love moves me to say.

It would mean letting go of the outcome and just being present with whomever I am with.

It may have been months or even YEARS later and I was still wishing I was with them. I wanted a partnership in business that helped me flourish and realize my dreams. What I was pining over in my head wasn’t who they really were.

Have you ever been SO in love with someone or so happy in a partnership and then all of a sudden it just falls apart? After getting enough distance from a former lover or partner, I found myself STILL pining over them. I began to see that I was in love with or stuck on the IDEA of them.

If I were to take my own advice, what would that look like for me?

It would look like showing up even when I’m scared of rejection.

I was spending so much time thinking about this IDEA of who I thought these people were that I wasn’t present.